Saturday, December 21, 2019
Last night’s close went a little easier than I expected. I had a few times where I felt like I had a speed and energy boost. This made me realize that I am only at about 60% of what I will be when I am fully healthy and “at strength”.
Sirens have been sounding on and off for the past 10 minutes and it is getting quite annoying.
I want to have an encounter with GOD. I even have a comfortable chair for Him to sit in in order to sit and talk.
Sunday, December 22, 2019
My ankles and feet hurt so much at work last night, starting about 5-1/2 to 6 hours in to shift, that I could hardly walk. They were still sore this morning, so I did not do my treadmill walk; I’m giving them a rest, until work tonight, six days in a row. I’m glad I’m moving away from closing in a few weeks.
There is so much I am not doing or keeping up with that I struggle to not let depression gain a foothold.
I am grateful for the recovery I am having from my surgery, however, I am not happy at all with my physical condition. Where is my faith? Where is my healing and wholeness? LORD Jesus healed people when they came to Him, not some time later after “special timing”. I am fed up with religious excuses. Where is the healing that is mine in Christ Jesus?