Friday, August 24, 2018
(296.0) [276.6] How is it I am 20 pounds behind? I’ve gotten almost nowhere. This morning I woke up feeling nauseous, aching in my head and neck, and felt on the verge of throwing up. I did my stretching but skipped my dumbbell workout.
Yesterday, at the moment I was to head in to go home, I was assigned a double ride at Southlake Methodist Hospital. I had to purposely ask GOD for grace so I wouldn’t explode. When it is time to go home, it is time to go home. “Pray for them that despitefully use you,” is what went through my heart and mind to help me not go off the deep end and just quit my job.
This blatant disrespect for me and my time and my own life is very difficult for me to deal with. It is only by the grace of GOD that I am going back to work today. If I did not believe GOD wanted me doing this particular job, I would have quit a few years ago.
If any man have a struggle against any, even as Christ forgave you, so do ye.” I must learn not only to forgive, but to forgive as Christ Jesus forgave me. I am sure I have no idea how utterly complete this type of forgiveness truly is. It must be time to learn. and to live it.
I wish I could lock myself in a room 8-10 hours a day, 5 days a week, and just study the WORD Of GOD from start to finish. This would likely take a few decades, but I really wish I could do this.
I am going rather slow this morning. Not too thrilled about not getting things done I should, especially with the extra time from not exercising.