Journal Entry: Friday, May 4, 2018

Friday, May 4, 2018

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Nikki and Scott took Kaiden last night on a trip to Florida. The thoughts I have had, and said, if something happens to Kaiden are not of love. I need to be cleansed and purified of all such thoughts, both in heart and mind. I need to be purified in Christ Jesus my LORD.

LORD GOD, watch over Kaiden, Nikki, and Scott. Keep them safe. Protect Kaiden from their evil ways and practices.

Understanding The Experience During Praise And Worship, Sunday, April 15, 2018, Part 6:

When the pressure dropped from very high to the middle upper abdomen I felt huge. The feeling of size seemed to stretch my body uncomfortably, and even extend beyond my body somewhat. I finally had the thought that “I am pregnant.” The time to give birth is coming. I remember wondering, if this is the end of the pregnancy, what is the final travail (labor) going to be like? I was actually looking forward to the experience of true travail. I was able to stand and participate in worship for a short time, however, that did not last long at all before I had to sit back down. After a time of praying in the spirit again the “baby” dropped from the middle upper abdomen to the middle lower abdomen, and I began thinking, “I wonder if I’m going to ‘give birth’ right here during worship, or even some later time during service. What kind of a seen would that be? My level of expectation began rising. I could still feel the fire on my face, neck, and arms.

I began wondering what I was going to give birth to. I was feeling seriously stretched out, beyond my actual body, and I felt very overdue. I began to feel the baby getting ready to position itself for birth.

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