Thursday, April 12, 2018
(295.5) I woke up today feeling much more like I have recently, instead of how I felt yesterday when I woke up. Though I felt at least a slight touch better than I have of late.
I find myself contemplating a question this morning, “Am I a believer?”
Mark 16:17-18 And These signs shall follow them that believe; In my name shall they cast out devils; they shall speak with new tongues; They shall take up serpents; and if they drink any deadly thing, it shall not hurt them; they shall lay hands on the sick, and they shall recover.
The only sign I see currently following me is speaking with new tongues. Other than this, I see none of them, so I must ask my Holy Father, “Am I a believer?” By my understanding I would have to answer, “No, not really.” This being the case, then what good am I to the Kingdom of GOD?
So, Father GOD, I ask you, “Am I a believer?”
I am going to bed tonight feeling alone, unappreciated, unloved, not cared for, and like a failure. Tomorrow is a new day.