Tuesday, April 10, 2018
I am up for the day. All I want right now is to go back to bed, to sleep in, and to have my day off. I am weary of getting up every morning, only to have to go to work yet another day.
I made a good bit of money yesterday, but I feel like I was cheated. I don’t feel rested. I don’t want to go to work. I don’t want to go anywhere. I was cheated of time with Anita and Kaiden. I was cheated of time to do things I needed to get done. I was cheated from study time. Money is not the main thing; at best money has become a necessary nuisance.
If I am to keep driving a taxi, then I want my own new cab; a new Ford Flex seems best, to pay Krazy Cab $20 or 20% per shift, whichever is greater. I want Anita to have a much better and easier life; to be connected to GOD. I want to see the salvation of GOD come to my entire household, and for everyone in it to be full-on baptized in Holy Ghost and fire.
What is there to this life if I do not truly know GOD as HE IS? I have told Paul Minikas about having the GOD IS GOOD curriculum, but honestly, I don’t really want to teach it, or teach anything anymore. I simply want to know GOD AS HE IS, and to walk/live in communion with Him, continuously.