Monday, March 5, 2018
(290.0) 7-1/2 hours of sleep. Progress again. We’ll see what happens tomorrow.
Today is my 35th anniversary; Anita deserves a better life than this.
Yesterday, during our church service, I oddly began feeling a pressure pushing me down. It was trying to sap my strength, outlook, and motivation. I still feel it today, but it has let up a little bit. It will soon be gone. I am thinking it was a spirit of depression attempting to plague me again. I don’t believe it will be successful, but that its success will be evermore less in the future. I believe what is different now is that it continues to get weaker and less effective against me as I continue to improve my focus upon GOD and His WORD. As I yield to Holy Spirit depression is no longer able to captivate my thinking and my attention. Such a simple answer that is so easy to miss or ignore; especially when continuing by purposely putting on the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness (to deal with depression and defeat it; this is GOD’s prescription).
While working on computer stuff tonight it felt like suddenly a bunch of heat was poured into my head; it felt different from anything I remember feeling before. I kept working, though when it happened I was standing up because I had to get something. After a while I noticed my mind felt more focused. I told my precious wife about it, and while I was telling her, it felt like a sudden burst of energy and heat was poured over the outside of my arms and in and on the skin of my arms and hands. Interesting. We shall see if anything seems different tomorrow.